The force I am against

March 12, 2008

Welcome, new visitor! My name is Ari, the man behind Aries9. Here I share my thoughts on music and life, so you can get to know me and my music. Thanks for visiting!

Unfortunately, it’s not a rare occurrence.

I read in Japanese news that they discovered bodies of 5 people, between ages of 21-37, in a car parked deep in the forest of Aomori, in northern Japan. They got together to self-produce a carbon monoxide poisoning.

People are getting together to encourage each other to kill themselves.

What I don’t understand is that these people are not lonely — in their hopelessness, they found company. And yet instead of finding comfort in being with other people to relate to, they use their bond to further drive themselves down to the bottom.

It’s a state of mind so extreme that it’s hard to comprehend. Yet, that’s something I am interested in doing.

No, not to form a suicidal group. To understand what goes inside these people’s minds.

I am a bit of mental detective. I love to learn about what it’s like. For example, in my own social circles there tends to be certain kinds of people — artists, parents, educated, middle-class, etc. I don’t personally know someone who’s a police officer, or a lawyer, or a judge, or a professional athlete.

So when I come into contact with one and if it seems appropriate, I do inquire about what it’s like to be in their shoes.

I am particularly interested in this suicidal culture — because I am against them. I’d love to join the force that eradicates such a culture. But to fight something, you have to understand what it is that you’re fighting. Know your enemy.

I don’t set out to make music to save people — I make music because I need to. But even in the darkest spots, I do create music with intention to give energy to life, to boost the will to live.

So this will to die, this force that creates self-death, is my counter-force, the tide that’s running against mine.

I consider it my business to know. Because I’m going to fight it.

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